She’s fucked up. She’s too damaged. Magnum, P.I. couldn’t solve the shit going on in her head. 

You think I have unresolved issues, ad you are the unresolved issues.

yes. but that’s not the point. I think it’s more than that.

I did it to fix my life. No. Wait, no. I did it because I’m a deeply unhappy person. No, I, No. I did it to get sympathy from you. I did it to piss you off. I did it because I’m not over you… or I was over you, and I was moving on. I did it because I want to know what it’s like to not be in pain. I did it because I want to feel more pain. whatever the reason, it was a bad reason. and a bad idea. and that’s all that matters.